2010, oh damn. I’m just gonna sum it up because honestly, I have a horrid memory. Brought in the year with Josh and Megan. Something special happened on the 25th. February had Sam turned fifteen on the 6th and Josh turned seventeen on the 10th. Partttties. Mine all the way at the last day. Oh wow, what a party I had. My room was filled to the max with people, sober and non. Tears, cheers, and everything in between. Josh and Sam slept over, and Megan stayed until like, 3AM. I cried more in the month of March than I have in the entirety of last year. Split ups, mistakes, fights, and I still love you more than ever. I miss you, and want you back here texting me every hour of the day about absolutely nothing. I wish this didn’t happen between everyone. I’m happy March is almost over. I want the warm weather.
This week, was shit. Sick, school, waiting, crying in your arms. I can’t believe you’re gone. I miss you more than ever imaginable. But the rest of you helped me that day and only one of you knew why. I’m so happy to call you all my friends.
Welllllllll I woke up feeling like dick because my kidneys and ovaries were dying. Layed in bed until like, 6:10. Rolled out of my bed and got ready, painfully. Walked down the three houses to Jacky’s, and went to school. Did some homework because I haven’t been in school in three days :x Nom, Josh walked in the door with the wind blowing through his god-like hair, looking pretty damn hawt in that amazing purple flannel he has. Talked to him and Marissa about my Vitamin Water that tasted like bubblegum. Went to first period with the fuckface Bies. Worst five minutes of my day. First, Scanlon <3 Love him so much. The other day he goes to me, “Oh you’re an Arizona addict too? That kept me alive in high school. If you cut me I’d bleed iced tea.” Second, had a quotes test on Romeo&Juliet, then after that I made everyone try my VW and see if it tasted like gum. Kyle was grinding on me and I almost puked. I got a purple hippo from Alex. Saw Josh in between periods like always.Third, I almost finished my art project finallllllllly. Saw Josh again. Fourth and fifth, bleh as always. ES is starting to bore me a lot, especially because I always seems to die in that class. Sixth, OMFG I want to hit that woman. I’m just sitting there doing nothing like everyone else because she let us do whatever for ten minutes before class started and then out of nowhere, “ERICA, YOU OKAY?!” Scared the fuck out of me. FUCK YOU BIES, I wanted to know what I was doing to make me look so hbgfhylgvblyrgvl. Walked out of there happy to see muh baby. Heallllllllth, we did review for the midterm. Lunch with Mary because Megan was out :( Got out of my test in Spanish which was good because I absolutely died of pain in that class. Josh was cr33pin on me outside of that class when it ended. G00dbye kizzez & went to Kayla’s to make brownies for art tmrw. Ended up there with a bunchhha people. Actually had some fun. JOSH TEXTED ME AND TOLD ME HE GOT HIS PERMIT AND I ALMOST PEED, THREW THE PHONE AND KAYLA AND SCREAMED AT MIKE. Thennnn after that my daddy picked me up and we blasted Journey out the car windows. Walked in to see I had a subscription to Seventeen magazine? That’s fun. Then I fell asleep from like, 6-8 which was amazing. Shower after that and now I’m sitting here, talking to Josh and Mike and Kayla wanting a Kool-Aid Blast SO FUCKING BAD.
I feel like yuck. My kidneys kill. So do my ovaries. My head as well. I’m an emotional wreck, crying everyday since I can remember. I don’t want to go to group therapy, and I don’t want to go to one-on-one sessions. School sucks, giving me stress beyond belief. This family drives me up a goddamn wall, and I can’t wait until the day I can leave. Having an over dose of Tylenol sounds swell right about now. It’s too hot in here. I want to go lay on some concrete, with only my dogs to keep me warm.